lvoe, kat.

Random vent post but I just randomly thought of something stupid and now I just totally need to let it out.

Are you really going to tell people that you were TOLD to do that? To do what you now regret? Because if I remember correctly, I TOLD YOU PLENTY OF TIMES TO NOT DO IT AND STAY AWAY FROM IT! So. Many. Times. You even stopped talking to our other friend about this certain thing because she was so blunt about it but you were set on doing it.

We tried to stop you. So many times. Oh my gosh, it got annoying actually because you wouldn't listen and then you'd say you're confused. And when you said you were confused, I tried to tell you which was right. But nope. So finally, I decided to support you on your decision because it seemed like that was what you wanted. And you wouldn't fight back when I didn't try to stop you. So I thought that was the right choice. I was still telling you it was wrong though but I was still trying to support you.

And now you're saying we pressured you into it? You were told what was right in your life and in the end it just hurt you and caused more trouble? Oh boy, you did that to yourself, girl. So PLEASE don't go around saying that. Even if you're not mentioning names. And PLEASE don't drill that into your head because you'd eventually think it's true when you completely made that up in your mind.

I'm not dwelling over this situation. Not at all. I just want you to get the fact straight because I just really dislike it that I was trying to help someone and instead of getting credit for it, I just look like a bad person. It bugs.

I've been having mood swings with my friends lately. It's like one day all I do is want to talk to them but then once they do something that makes me feel bad, I don't want anything to do with them. I've been so confused with the topic of friends lately.

Ever since I graduated from high school, I've been jumping from one group of friends to another. And all I want is a group of friends that I'll stay with for a long time, not just a year or a few months. That's all that has been happening. Friends come and go in my life so fast now.

But then again, sometimes I feel like all I do is try to be nice, be there, and make a friend's day and all I get in return is disappointment from them.

Ever since an incident that happened when I graduated high school, I've been so picky with friends. And when Daniel left, I kicked all the negative people in my life out. I was SO happy with life, SO content just a little over a year ago when I did that. And here I am now. Not knowing which friend in my life should stay and would help me go down the right path in life and make me happy.

Oh, but don't get me wrong. There are a few friends that I'm for certain are great friends! They're there for me. They make me feel like a better person. They make me smile and laugh. Thanks but then there are the friends that puts me down. All they can do is talk to me with a tone that makes me believe that I'm not smart and good enough.

Either way, I love life. Today is Daniel's 16 month mark! 7 months left. I'm so happy he's coming home in June instead of July :)

The ones that taught me!
Went by so fast! But yet slow.... Daniel has about 8 months left :) woot woot!

@ the departing missionary fireside:

I haven't actually blogged in so long so I decided to do it now because I have time. Actually, no I don't. I should be studying. Oh well. My friend/Utah sister, Alix is getting her missionary back today! I'm so jealous. Oh my gosh, it seemed like she was at 4 months. This is crazy stuff. I'm SO excited for her. I can't imagine what she's feeling. I hope things go well :)

I'm at school again. I tend to blog when I'm at school.

I walked out of my house this morning with perfect wavy hair and an outfit I picked out last minute.

... a few hours later, due to the humidity and fog this morning, I look completely different than how I looked when I walked out of my house.

My hair was wavy and down. Now it's:

All tied up in a side ponytail! The fog made it all frizzy, poofy, and less wavy! :O

And I walked out of my house with shorts, a blouse with a black belt around the waist. And now it's:
I tied my blouse and made it like a cropped shirt (?) haha. I ate Subways, smoothies, and chips and I felt so bloated that the belt around my waist was killing me so I took it off. But then I felt like my blouse was really big and baggy so I just tied it.

Incredible. I tend to always do this. Walk out of the house in one outfit and hairdo and come back home looking completely different.

I went to Disneyland once, actually twice and had on 3-4 different outfits. Let me see if I can upload them pictures of those days.

2nd outfit:

3rd outfit:

Maybe that's because Daniel stole my shirt... ;)

4th outfit:

5th outfit:

2nd outfit and hair was braided:

Pretty sure it's because Daniel stole my tank top and my outer shirt was see through... ;)

(his new shirt was outrageously itchy and he needed an undershirt and I only had my tank top lol)

I love going to Disneyland during the holidays. Especially Christmas<3333333333333333333

Halloween starts today. I went yesterday but they still had a whole bunch of Halloween decorations up. Doesn't it just make you happy!?


And I saw the whole custodian drawing a Disney character for the first time!


And I watched the Soundsational Parade finally!

Wow, I really am having a "Daniel" night tonight.

I got home from church and immediately missed Daniel. I decided to run around my neighborhood. 20 minutes nonstop running. That made me realize that running when a lot is on your mind is the best time to run!

Right now I'm putting all our letters in a binder and organizing it by date.

I'm re-reading them as I go and we've come a looong way.

Tomorrow is Disneyland with some SoCal MGs:) & RMG! I'm excited. And email day tonight! yay! I've missed him tons and I honestly cannot wait until we email. I'm so lost in life... but the one thing that I'm certain of is that Daniel is my best friend ever and I can't live without him. It hurts to just think about him not being in my life.

Haha and everytime I blog, I don't know whether or not to blog on this blogspot, Tumblr, or my Xanga. So confusing! :p

There are 8 TV shows I watch regularly.

1) 90210
2) Supernatural
3) Pretty Little Liars
4) Glee
5) Switched at Birth
6) The Lying Game
7) Bob's Burger
8) Family Guy

But I've been sorta bored with them because 1) some of the seasons have already ended and 2) I have a lot of free time sometimes and I just want to watch TV shows!

So I've been browsing TV shows and stumbled upon Awkward. My friend has mentioned it before to me. She said that it reminded her of me and that I will like the TV show. I forgot all about it after our conversation until last night. And I started watching it this morning and I'm hooked. I'm on the 3rd episode already. I seriously love finding TV shows to be obsessed with!

Well, I'm going back to finishing all the episodes. I just paused to blog because she blogs in the show and it just made me want to blog. I know, I'm weird hah. Good day!

And I am bored! I haven't blogged in a while, yo.

This is my schedule this week:
Monday: School from 8AM - 7PM and then FHE.
Tuesday: School 8AM-9:15AM and then work at 5PM - 11PM
Wednesday School from 8AM - 10PM
Thursday: Class cancelled already! FREE DAY! Until work at 5PM to 11PM -___-
Friday: FREE DAY! And work at 3PM till 7PM.
Saturday: Work at 7PM till 11PM. Blahh.
Sunday: CHURCH FREE DAY!!

I hate work. That's all.

I'm trying to save up for a mini Cooper and I keep spending money.... I bought the best feather pillow yesterday for $22 bajillion. Hah. And yeah. Bye. I'm bored. Next class in 40 minutes! Astronomyyy.

I can't wait to do random videos with Daniel again:) and randomly dancing and eating and balh balh balh. whoa, I typed "blah" wrong not only once, but THREE TIMES!!

So I'm kinda crazy.... crazy over books! I'm kinda reading like 5 books at the moment. Trying to finish them quick. Ay yi yi! What have I gotten myself into? Why am I reading so many books!?

Yes! I started the Hunger Game. I started it 2 months ago and only on page 58. Wth..

Trying to re-read all the HP books. This is all I have though so I need to borrow #1-#4.

Something Borrowed. The movie was amzingly funny so I had to start on the book!

Ryann Newby lent me this when she was down here in California since I was freaking out about the Temple:)

Of course, the Book of Mormon! Every night. Haven't missed a night since Daniel has left (July 8, 2010)

And yet, I'm still buying books! This is my bookshelf. I have more behind these books. I probably have like more than 11 books I still need to read. Bahh!

Oh! And I ordered Jenny Oaks Baker's Wish Upon a Star CD from Deseret Book. It came in the mail today and instead of just one, it came with two! I have two Disney tribute CDs now! I love it! I'm listening to it over and over again. And now I really wanna go to Disneyland so bad :'(

You know the friend that you become close with?
The friend that you met not even 6 months ago and went through a whole mess of situations with already but got through it TOGETHER?
The friend that you were there for and supported them no matter what they chose?
The friend that you told over and over that what they were doing was wrong?
The friend that didn't listen when you told them that what they're doing was wrong?
The friend that was confused between two people and you told them to give the first person a second chance even though they treated your friend bad and that first person HATED your guts?
The friend that ended up with the first person in the end and broke the second person's heart?
The friend that apparently always leaves their wallet at home or in the car everywhere you guys go and asks you to buy them something and they'll pay you back?
The friend that did it on the 2nd hang out they ever had?
The friend that did that and you actually bought the thing they wanted but they never paid you back?
The friend that did it plenty of times but you still gave in and bought it for them anyways?
The friend that got to go on a Utah trip and had a blast with you?
The friend that was able to go because you bought them their $200 plane ticket?
The friend that still hasn't paid you back for the plane ticket when they said they'd pay you back in 2 days?
The friend that you become close to but then they cut you out of their life?
The friend that cut you out of their life because your friendship with them doesn't mean anything to them?
The friend the basically ends your friendship through a Facebook message?
The friend that blocks/deletes you from Facebook and blocked you from calling them?
The friend that didn't just end the friendship but DELETES you from their life?
The friend that learned to get through situations by blocking and deleting people from their life instead of working through it?
The friend that did the same thing to the second person that I mentioned in the beginning which broke their heart?
The friend that lives a life full of lies?

Yeah, I HAD that friend.
But despite it all,

I went to the OC Fair yesterday and did all of my OC Fair traditions :) This is going to be my last one without Daniel!

Tradition 2: See a beautiful steer. LOL jk, buy a smoothie from that one smoothie place...

Tradition 3: Buy a cinnamon roll from the Carnival Product buildingTradition 4: Go to the Visual Art gallery

Buy curly fries from Juicy's.

Tradition 6: Ride Tango!

Those are the traditions :) It's great. Oh and also, never pay for parking. Park at OCC! Haha.
Oh! Look what keychains were added to my lanyard in less than a week!

Hehehehe:) I love it!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN' CUTE! & I bought the Ariel/Flounder keychain 2 days ago on Etsy and it got here so fast!! (But not as fast as Lety buying a flash drive and receiving it the next day.............) lol

I'm tired of working but I have work in less than an hour so I should go get ready. Toodles!!!!!

So I had a hard time last time and couldn't sleep. I fell asleep at 3AM finally... not feeling very happy. I was hoping for a better feeling when I wake up and a better day.

And then I wake up to something not very pleasant - a long arse message from my so-called friend basically telling me that our friendship didn't mean anything. It's kinda sorta cool to realize how much my friendship meant.

BUT!

I had a fantastic day :). I'm going on a crepe and Disneyland date with Lety in t-minus 5 minutes (that's probably how long it's gonna take for her to get ready quick, get in her car, and drive to my house).

And then mayyybee watching a movie with my friends, Nancy and Diane. But then that'll mean no Disneyland hahaha. Oh goosh >.< bye! LOOK WHAT I GOT IN THE MAIL!

So I use Tumblr. I have two blogs! My personal one and of course, my Disney one:)

http://lvoekat.tumblr.com

http://lvoedisney.tumblr.com

I love scrolling through the dashboard and finding amazing posts! And I especially love it when I find touching ones that touches my heart. Look what I just found!

I hope you guys can read what it says but the picture explains it all. I don't know why I just blogged about another blog site... haha.

So! I had my very first Ben & Jerry's.

CHUNKY MONKEY. It was delish! Yessyess.. I also watched a really hilarious movie today called "Just Go With It". I laughed so much. By myself. In the dark. I was seriously watching this movie on my laptop in my very dark room alone! My mom called me crazy when she came in. Cause I was laughing.. in a very dark room.. by myself! Hahahah I was too lazy to get up and turn it on.

I LOVE DANIEL ANDREWS!
These past days, I've felt so much gratitude for Daniel. Wait... if I feel grateful for Daniel.. does using the word "gratitude" make sense? I don't think so. And I've also been Daniel-sick but it's ohkay! He's feeling Kat-sick himself. Longer than I have been Daniel-sick!

"Omgosh! :) This may seem mean, but i promiss i dont mean for it to sound mean in anyway, but i am so glad that you are Daniel sick :) Because this whole week has been terrible. Missionary work wise its great, but i have been SO KAT LY SICK! Like seriously every second of every day has been you on my mind... :/ I love it! But my stomach is like upside down because i miss you so much! "

I finally got an actual letter letter from Daniel today. After 127 days! In the letter, he told me he doesn't want me dating anymore and that it makes him nervous just thinking about it. But that doesn't matter. What I'm focusing on is him asking me what are my favourite scriptures! He shared some of his favourtie scriptures with me.

Problem? :(

I have tons but it doesn't seem as cool as his... or I don't know! And it's all saved on my phone that broke. So I'm going to sound lame when I reply back going "I'll get back to you on that!" lol I only remember Ruth 1:16,17. I'm not even sure if its 16,17 or 17,18!! It's about friendship though:) And I heard it on my trip in Utah. Looove. But yeah, I need to learn how to study scriptures better. I read the whole Book of Mormon but I didn't exactly understood what I read. And ever since then, I've started the Book of Mormon over 3 times because I can't understand what I'm reading as I go deeper into the book! Gah, this sucks. I can do it though!

Oh and his year mark was 3 days ago. Oh and I have to start real life tomorrow after like a 2 weeks vacation from real life. I love fake life:)

Can this be my wedding ring? I DON'T CARE IF THERE'S NO DIAMONDS. I DON'T EVEN LIKE DIAMONDS ANYWAYS! They are not my best friend. These M&M rings are my best friend:)

I've been in Utah for about 8 days now. Best vacation ever!

MGs I've met:

Alix Scott and Lara Jean:)

Lacey Ison :)

Nina Bany, Sara Millecam, and Mariana Lopez:)

Emily Elkins, Jeni Nelson, Taelor Bennett, Ashley Allen, Laura Jean Yacks, Christina Evans, Candance Williams, Sonia Webster, and Marci Hicken... and more.. lol

Desiree Moore!!

and as I'm typing this, Christina Evans just came to pick us up to HORSEBACK RIDE!!!:)