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Random vent post but I just randomly thought of something stupid and now I just totally need to let it out.

Are you really going to tell people that you were TOLD to do that? To do what you now regret? Because if I remember correctly, I TOLD YOU PLENTY OF TIMES TO NOT DO IT AND STAY AWAY FROM IT! So. Many. Times. You even stopped talking to our other friend about this certain thing because she was so blunt about it but you were set on doing it.

We tried to stop you. So many times. Oh my gosh, it got annoying actually because you wouldn't listen and then you'd say you're confused. And when you said you were confused, I tried to tell you which was right. But nope. So finally, I decided to support you on your decision because it seemed like that was what you wanted. And you wouldn't fight back when I didn't try to stop you. So I thought that was the right choice. I was still telling you it was wrong though but I was still trying to support you.

And now you're saying we pressured you into it? You were told what was right in your life and in the end it just hurt you and caused more trouble? Oh boy, you did that to yourself, girl. So PLEASE don't go around saying that. Even if you're not mentioning names. And PLEASE don't drill that into your head because you'd eventually think it's true when you completely made that up in your mind.

I'm not dwelling over this situation. Not at all. I just want you to get the fact straight because I just really dislike it that I was trying to help someone and instead of getting credit for it, I just look like a bad person. It bugs.

Friends.

I've been having mood swings with my friends lately. It's like one day all I do is want to talk to them but then once they do something that makes me feel bad, I don't want anything to do with them. I've been so confused with the topic of friends lately.

Ever since I graduated from high school, I've been jumping from one group of friends to another. And all I want is a group of friends that I'll stay with for a long time, not just a year or a few months. That's all that has been happening. Friends come and go in my life so fast now.

But then again, sometimes I feel like all I do is try to be nice, be there, and make a friend's day and all I get in return is disappointment from them.

Ever since an incident that happened when I graduated high school, I've been so picky with friends. And when Daniel left, I kicked all the negative people in my life out. I was SO happy with life, SO content just a little over a year ago when I did that. And here I am now. Not knowing which friend in my life should stay and would help me go down the right path in life and make me happy.

Oh, but don't get me wrong. There are a few friends that I'm for certain are great friends! They're there for me. They make me feel like a better person. They make me smile and laugh. Thanks but then there are the friends that puts me down. All they can do is talk to me with a tone that makes me believe that I'm not smart and good enough.

Either way, I love life. Today is Daniel's 16 month mark! 7 months left. I'm so happy he's coming home in June instead of July :)

My missionaries Mehr, Warner, and Do are home!

The ones that taught me!
Went by so fast! But yet slow.... Daniel has about 8 months left :) woot woot!

@ the departing missionary fireside:




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