lvoe, kat.

BlogSpot is WEIRD.
There's something up with this blog site.
I just know it..................

I have no problems writing away on Xanga and Tumblr (my other blogs) but with BlogSpot, I click on "New Post" and just sit and stare at the screen with a blank mind. This proves there's something up with this site. I'm watching you BlogSpot.... *glares*

So I started to blog on BlogSpot because I wanted a site dedicated to me talking about my missionary. It was fun at first. Then I slowly started to not blog daily and now it's like rarely.

I realize there's not much to say about my missionary.

He's so busy now that I barely get letters or packages anymore.

Pictures of Daniel when he was little. Light brown hair and blue eyes..... now he has dark brown hair and green eyes. So weird! Haha and the picture to the top left corner was a picture of his family at Disneyland that his dad randomly gave me....... lol

Half of these stuffed animals are his. He used the line "Think about Toy Story!!!!" when I refused to take in his stuffed animals. I didn't want to suffocate while sleeping!!! But I gave in..... we got all his stuffed animals together. It's mostly from the claw machines (which we're obsessed with). He called them our children..... Wow, I just remembered that right now, lol.

Countdown poster. I was way excited to finish the first spire. I thought I would never get there.

The photo album package I was suppose to finish and send in December. I'm way too lazy to write letters and send packages now:( Something's wrong with me..
The Funfetti brownie mix I always get to bake to celebrate Daniel's "anniversary"... every 9th:)

Me and Daniel both have a "Kat Drawer" and a "Daniel Drawer" (well I have the Daniel one and he has the Kat one) This is my Daniel Drawer. We put almost everything that relates to each other in here. The Kat Drawer was one of the only things he didn't clean/take out of his room before he left on his mission. His little brother has to have a room with a Kat Drawer, sorry Eric:)

I finally went to Disneyland after 3 weeks.

And it's true.

Dreams do come true there....




.... I met SPIELING PETER!! My dream!!!

It was awkward, I admit and I was sorta disappointed because from the videos and pictures I've seen, he seemed super funny, hyper, cute, and friendly. But he was sorta normal to me. Sigh. I got an epic fail picture with him though. And a video of myself when I found him. I sounded way too excited.

You know the feeling you have when you're dreaming of your missionary?
That wonderful feeling of getting to talk to him again and just seeing his handsome self?

Well I just had that.

I haven't dreamt of Daniel for I think 2 months. Or maybe even more. It's weird. But I finally did last night. We were talking. He was dressed in one of my favorite outfits (for some reason, it was normal for missionaries to dress like that and yes, he was still a missionary in my dream). We were at a grocery store, I believe (!?!?!?!) and were hiding under something because he wasn't allowed to talk to me... I think. It was great!!! Then the moment I woke up, I cried.

I don't want to dream of Daniel anymore!!!!!!!!! I hate the feeling I get AFTER the dream!! I just missed him more and realizing that the wondrous moment that I just had with Daniel was all made up and in my head saddened me:( Oh well.

Here's a random video of Daniel and I. This was made last January... I love how I don't even look like that anymore and I love how... Daniel has gained some weight since then LOL!!

If Daniel was still here, we'd be having an adventure and going to the beach right now! With the tsunami warning and everything.... idiots, I know. We went to the beach when there was a huge storm last year. One of the best memory I have. The beach was so pretty in a weird way. It was super windy, super cold, the sky was a weird color, the waves were coming up high and it was all foam-y. It was a crazy experience. I want to have that again. Where art thou Daniel when you need him to go on a crazy adventure with you!?!??!!?

I woke up today and decided to print out all of the emails Daniel sent me. I printed out half of it and it was probably 100 pages. Some (most) of it was just a one-liner because we were emailing back and forth. I'm so stupid, I forgot to just connect it all and then print it out so it's not a single sentence on one huge paper. HAH! I got a letter from Elder Warner!! He always finds time to write to me every single week, he's such a great missionary/friend:) I'm so glad he got to teach me! Now a letter from MY missionary... it's been almost 3 weeks!! >:/ hahaha.

Alright, it's time for me to start writing about what I started this blog for.

Yeah, that's not a picture of him being a missionary because he's still just my boyfriend to me:) Heh. I've been daydreaming of him coming home lately. A lot. And he's still got another 16 months (8 month mark in 2 hours!!! Or technically today since he left today, 8 months ago but arrived in England on the 9th). I gotta wake up EARLY tomorrow to bake the monthly brownies and go over to his family before school at 11AM. Ohhh snaps:( I hope I can wake up. I'm excited for tomorrow though:) yesssssssss. I hope I get letters tomorrow. I sent out 5 letters to 5 different missionaries last Friday. I'm bound to get at least one letter tomorrow!:) I love writing missionaries, even if it's not MY missionary!

now a fun video:) this was at a drumline competition! we were always the trouble maker in drumline... oh dear.

I honestly have no clue if this will be a good decision or not but it's something I feel that the spirit is prompting me to do. Sort of. Yes it is... sort of. Oh heck, I don't know!

I want to quit my job at Le Yogourt. I've been recently called to be a ward missionary and THAT'S HUGE TO ME. I wanted to be a missionary SO BAD but because of some interference, I just can't. I've prayed about what to do so many times and a little after that, I was called to be a ward missionary. I think it's a gift from Heavenly Father since I can't be a full-time missionary like I really want to be. Good news right? Not. I got the calling a little after I got a job. And I can't do anything because of this job! I honestly have no done A THING since I got this calling. I can't go to the meetings, go to Gospel Discussions, find investigators and meet with the missionaries, or AHHHHH! It feels like Heavenly Father blessed me with this calling and I'm just throwing it away for a job that I greatly despise. So much. I could be doing something that will make me SUPER happy but instead I'm choosing to do something that I don't like. I don't even have any bills, debts, or anything to pay off! I'm just working for the experience.

So I've been thinking about quitting. But I didn't really think of it much until my friend, Lety said for me to just quit the job so I will be able to grow in the Gospel while Daniel is out. I get $2000 every 4 months anyways.... I honestly rather get a job that makes me happy so it doesn't feel like I'm sacrificing my calling for something that makes me unhappy. But then again, what if for some reason, I really need money in the future. It's sort of really hard to find a job right now in this economy. But then again, summer is coming up and stores are always hiring seasonal... sighh

What should I do!?!?!:(

I sort of really miss this boy. These past few days have been sort of hard, haha. I don't know why I just laughed there.... lol. I don't know... don't you just sometimes wish your best friend never left and you wish he can be with you on all these adventures you're having without him? I sometimes sort of get jealous that he's making adventures in England without me... hahahaha. I know, ridiculous! I miss having someone in mind when I feel like I need to vent or to just hang with when I have absolutely nothing to do. Or I just miss having somebody here to love...:) Oh geez, I don't know. It's almost 3am and I just got back from Disneyland with Jorge and Daniel's siblings. I'm so sleepy. I'm so full. I'm so getting broke! Today consisted of me spending $10 at iHops for crepes/fries, $13 at the Disney Store for The Little Mermaid music box, $22 at Victoria Secrets for a bra and underwear (I don't know why I just told you guys this..), $11 at Book Off for season 2 of the OC, and $2 at 711 for taquitos.. sighh:(



My beautiful music box that I've always wanted since I was a kid. I never got a music box before! And there was a funny story to this box but it's not that interesting. I just love it! So worth my $13. Kay, well toOdles!

Gosh! I just counted all my tip money that I've made since February 5th from working at Le Yogourt and the total was $50!! Pretty good for just a frozen yogort place, yeah?:) Hahah I'm planning on saving all my tip money until I quit Le Yogourt. And hey, look! There are coins under the dollar bills, which means it's wayyy more than $50!! Party!!


Ka-ching, ka-chiiinggg!!:) Yes.. my coins and bills are in a big baby bottle. I've had that since I was like in middle school, heheh.

So free pancakes at iHops today.... went to my best friend, Valerie. We got the 3 free pancakes but put it in a to-go box and ordered something else. Why the heck did we do that!? I have no idea, hahaha. Work was super slow today:( Until the very end of my shift when I had to close... everybody decided to come get frozen yogurt at 8:50PM when I close at 9PM. So I ended up closing later than usual. Yuck!

Now I'm sitting and listening to the OC soundtracks while eating.....


Jelly beans!! Look at all those beans.. and flavors. I'm super picky.. the bad thing about having a huge jar of jelly beans is having to look down everytime to pick out a flavor... I want to eat it like a bag of chips. The most disgusting flavor I've eaten so far while I was pretending it was a bag of chips? Caramel corn. So. Disgusting.

Well once again, this had nothing to do with my missionary. So I'm going to write something little about him... hmm..

Got emails yesterday from him! And the forwarded email from his mom today! He wrote a long arse email apologizing for how he treated me when he was here with me. How he always forced me to do things like when I didn't want to airsoft and he forced me to airsoft to tears... hah! I didn't even think he remembered that but he did! Why the heck was he thinking about all that though... he said ever since he got my vday package, he's been thinking about me A LOT and he started apologizing!! What a cute weirdo:)

496 (almost 495) days left!